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Darkness around the sun
Some where theres a sea that has no other side
some where theres an airplane lost beyond the sky
so fly us up above the clouds
live your life where you are now
in the darkness round the sun
theres light behind your eyes
when you've lost the will to run
you can feel it start to shine
where the rain falls down so hard
and you dont know where to stop
oh, drown it in the sun
some where theres an airplane lost beyond the sky
so fly us up above the clouds
live your life where you are now
in the darkness round the sun
theres light behind your eyes
when you've lost the will to run
you can feel it start to shine
where the rain falls down so hard
and you dont know where to stop
oh, drown it in the sun
I miss Sev and David because they are the world's best best friends.
I miss my guitar because it isn't in my hand right now,
And I miss Cam because no one can race against me like him.
This is my life, and I like it.
- Mood:
cheerful
- Mood: calm
Take my sweet time
Getting it back again
What matters most will carry me
Through the night to where I wanna be baby
Take my sweet time
But I'll be home again
In my own sweet time yeah
- Mood:
cynical
There's my update.
It's all anyone else is doing
I bet I waited at the doctor's office for over 3 hours before I was seen. Then they did the whole x-ray Lexzi's foot thing and turns out I have a minor fracture or something. So, They put this itchy, weird cast on me. I have a wheelchair at my disposal, but I'm far more fond of the independance of crutches. I don't know. It doesn't hurt nearly as bad as it did a week ago, but docs say if I didn't come in to them it wouldn't heal right and blah blah blah. So, I've been a movie junkie--anything scary I can get my hands on, I've watched. It passes the time, and I've found myself so bored--even homework is helpful to it.
One quirky plus side to the day, I suppose, is the fact that it's storming. I've always loved thunderstorms--even as a little girl, they seem to provide me with a weird energy. I write my best songs in storms. I do miss being able to go to work, but since my job isn't that amazing anyhow--I'm stating now if anyone at college wants some extra help with something, I'm down. I'm almost desperate to have a new job, anyhow.
Speaking of jobs and money; Cam you've got mail in the form of money for my awesome, awesome car. And as always, the bonus pack of smokes. ;)
I think this whole bum ankle thing is most depressing because washing and waxing my car is a task, and I am not taking my beloved Shelby GT through a car wash. I'd rather chew nails. Then again, I can't really drive right now anyway--so it's not an issue. Haha
I'm having a party soon--was thinking of tomorrow, or sometime this week. I really need to have some fun, and everyone's welcome. I'll supply drinks and food--though, I'm liable to have tequila and rum, so if you're drinking tastes are different from that, better bring what you like! :-)
Today we learned high lights in cosmetology with Ms. Vanek. I'm really lucky she likes me, coz by the time she came around to grade us I was covered in purple color, and she had to help me scrub it off my cheeks and neck so I didn't look like bruised, starteled--purple thing. On the bright side--I've now got some rad bright purple streaks hanging out in my blonde hair. I love makeovers, they really are renewing.
I'm going to get off this thing now, and go watch the storm from my window. Sighs. I love days like this.
P.S- I've become a game addict while homebound. I think I need to take pills for my addiction to the Wii.
- Mood:
creative
It started as a girl's day out, everything was lovely, Blair and I looked at some clothes in the baby stores and oogled some of the cutest twin outfits ever! We had lunch, I went shopping for a new pair of shoes (You'll see the irony shortly) and we decided we wanted to see something to scare us, so we picked out the best rated horror movie showing and took our seats. So, the movie's just getting really scary--the whole place is dark but the captivating characters on the screen and there's screaming and running..and then all the sudden the screaming and running was in the theatre--people were trampeling over the two of us to get out--turns out some stoner lit up in the theatre, threw his joint down when the movie police popped in with flashlights, and it caught on fire against the wall by one of the two emergency exits. Blair wasted no time urging me out of the building, and we made it to the available exit--locked! So I freaked out and went Karate kid on the door, kicking it several times to jar the lock. The good news is, it totally worked and we both survived, the bad news--kicking at the wrong angle apparently results in the most excruciating sprain--at least that's what I'm calling it for now--it's swollen and all the like. I have it propped up, but I'm also not a medical genius, or someone rich enough to pay for medical genius--I heard there's a campus doctor, I may try and seek him out. For merely a sprain, I don't see the worth in paying half a mill or something insane like the hospitals charge. Sigh. My new shoes are shiny black high heels with silver stars on them, and possibly the cutest, most cursed little shoe ever. It'll be staying right in it's box until I can actually manage walking again. Sigh
Sometimes I just have to vent. I'm okay, I've probably smoked more cigarettes in my life then the smoke I inhaled, I feel dizzy and shaken up, but I'm alright. I think Blair is too--I don't even know how the movie ends, and can you believe? They don't even want to give our money back, what kinda creeps! I so plan to sue, just so they know.
Loki seems like he can tell I'm hurt--he just keeps whining and sitting beside me, then getting up like he's urging me to follow.
I need a vicodin and a good night's rest, but company would be great too--I'm house bound until I get crutches
- Mood:
crushed
Your love's like ultraviolet,
I can feel it burn but I like it, yeah.
I'm on autopilot, headin' for the sun.
I don't know what's good for me,
I don't need a remedy.
No one's gonna rescue me from myself.
I don't care if it hurts my eyes.
I'll stare until I'm goin' blind.
You can hate me, I don't mind anymore.
'Cause I know you're the cure and,
Your love's like ultraviolet,
I think I am in love with my muse.
- Mood: creative
Or something.
I got this bottle of tequilla---it's HUGE. It's Patron, and I can't drink it by myself--that takes away most the fun! I got limes, my girl Mary Jane, and uh---whatever the fuck else. My bottom line? It's SUNDAY folks, and I, Alexzandra Spencer Johnson, am bored out of my mind--so I think you all should come see me. I caught lunch with Jac though, which was fantastic. Maybe that's why I'm hyper, did you do this Ms, Jac? Hmnn...
Do something great before spring break ends, all of you. It's an order by your friendly new neighborhood blonde.
OKAY.
Lexzi over and out.
Lexzi Sings <--Aim me.
- Mood: cheerful
So, it went like this--I woke up to my first day of spring break with the fever to change my scenery, change my everything. I think it's some sort of back effect from having moved around so much--things changed constantly, and it turns out I'd grown more accustomed to all the fresh starts and uproots then I thought I had. So, like I said--I woke up and had the craving for something different. Tired of the same window outlooking the same parking lot and outline of same rain threatened skies. So, I busted out my suitcase which never seems to collect dust, and packed it with enough clothes to stay with my older sister Sadie for a few days. I'm still pretty local, just not staying on campus until probably Saturday or Sunday. We needed this alone time anyway, we caught up on things both old and new, and hit up a few bars and casinos (Sadie is a Blackjack dealer at one of them, so she gets into most pretty easily, and even taught me some of the shadier things 'card sharks' learn in the business) Needless to say, after the gambeling went our way we decided to do something for ourselves; turns out she had the same vibe going on--that same need for change. It's almost like we thrive on it anymore.So--one hundred dollars and three coffees later I'm strapped in to a chair at one of the best salons according to Sadie, and they are chopping my red locks and slathering the color onto them. At first I was kind of freaking out, The one thing I hadn't changed in a few years is my red hair, but blonde is my natural shade, and I decided to put it back for now. Sadie says we look more like sisters again and blah blah blah. I don't know, but she was right about the change in confidence--the smallest thing can lift your spirits. It's like my bad moods washed down the drain with the red dye. I am really good at convincing myself rebirth is as easy as a haircut. I'd felt kind of lonely, and that's a feeling I never really got. I welcomed the peace and quiet as time to write my music, and time to play my music, but I guess it's all summed up as spring fever. Happy couples everywhere, which is great, but it's always tugged at my heartstrings a little. I know I'm young and I got this whole world ahead of me, but I wouldn't mind having someone to share it with.
So the picture is of the 'new old me' and the girl to my left is Sadie, the guy on my right is an old friend of ours that decided to visit. Alas, more casinos and booze ensued. It's been an untypical spring break, but not a bad one.
I'm off to do--whatever it is Sadie planned for today.
(((ooc note: Since it's always worth a shot, I should mention that if someone feels like they want to take on the role of Sadie I'll hook up with icons and all of that good stuff--her background is an open pallet, and even if you want to change her PB character. It'd just be rad to have her sister around!)))
- Mood:
curious
Other then that, go look at the birthay calendar. I'm April 15th, so is Bob, and there are a lot of kids really, really close like--days ahead or behind. So, I was thinking we should all do something for it. A nice party or something, maybe it'll get everyone meeting new people or something. I know I'm having one, so if you April babies want to join me..let me know, we'll plan something great!
School is fine, life is fine, parents are fine--they're cold, because that's what Alaska is--but my sister Sadie decided to stay here closer to me so it's good I have a sibling within reach, yea?
- Mood: chipper
" Okay, I'm back up on my grind
You do you, and I'm just gonna do mine
You do you, because I'm gonna be fine
Okay, I got you out of my mind.
And the night is young,
and the drinks is cold
The stars is out, I'm ready to go
You always thought I was always wrong
Well, now you know
Tell everybody, everybody that you know
Tell everybody I don't love you no more
And that's one thing that you know"
Kanye serves me up a piping hot inspiration, the man's got some soul behind his words, what can I say? I've had the damn song on loop. It speaks to me though, it's just empowering. So--I figured I'd pass on the wisdom behind it. If you are in a shitty position, say 'fuck it' and have yourself a decent night for once. I've just noticed a lot of frowns lately.
Anyway, not much else happening in the fabulous life of moi. It's about the same as it always is, me and my guitar. Me and my i-pod. Except, I've added Loki my super hyper, super happy husky puppy. Then again, I can't forget my beautiful car either. Dorothy. Like the grandad from Boondocks calls his ride--not like you know---somewhere over the rainbow girl Judy. It's a conversation starter, that's for certain. Best pick up line I've heard since Dorothy? "Baby, what time does your husband want his car back--because, you are going to want to tell him now you'll be late"
I wanted to tell that guy to put a cold steak on his left black eye, but I'm sure the next vapid bimbo that line actually works on will do it for him. I'm saving my cold steak for my knuckles. ;)
Umn...grades are good, I'm happy about it, because the parent people are happy about it, so--you know. My sister Sadie is in the midst of deciding whether she wants to enroll with me, whether she wants to stick to another school, or join mom and dad on army adventure number next one in Alaska. What the fuck is in Alaska? Is dad going to fight off the penguins and polar bears threatening the U.S? Maybe there's an angry stray seal he'll have to wrestle to it's doom. Hahah. Oh, man.
I'm seeking. By seeking I mean, I need some folks to kick it with. I'm pretty bored, and I could use a day out of my dorm with someone that answers me. I feel a little too 'I am Legend' for my own good with just Loki around me. Like, next stop I'll be in the clothing store like "I promised my friend i'd say hi to you today" talking to a mannequin or something. Then again, imagining the whole world flooded with zombies sounds fun, it's a good chance to use my katana, and maybe a baseball bat or two to mix it up.
Nothing's changed: Lexzi Sings still gets a hold of me.
- Mood: creative
School is going pretty good I guess, I've been able to keep up on my homework and things so far still make sense, my professor's are all pretty good, and I've made a dcent amount of new friends. It's still such a good feeling to have a solid place to stay, and not waking up at 3 a.m wondering what my new home will be like, and the people that surround it.
Other then that, I've just been keeping up with my usual absolute wind tunnel of song lyrics and guitar tabs. I really should learn how to organize all this creativity busting out of me, but then again--I kind of like the disorder, I can actually find everything easier then if I picked it up--because I never do. So I've gotten pretty good at 'I spy'
I have an urge to go out and do something fun, anyone heard of any good parties lately?
- Mood: curious
He's the tiniest thing, isn't he? His eyes are so blue when he has them open! I'm still struggeling on a name for him. Maybe Loki--I just don't know. It's so hard to decide these kinds of things, I mean...the last cat I had I just ended up calling cat! Heh. But yeah, David helped me pick him out today, and you'll all be happy to know he survived the angry parrot changeling him to a fashion duel off or something! I also got to see the face one makes when they eat a strawberry cough drop and sip coffee. It's hella sour!
I was chatting cars with Cam earlier and it turned out to be his father's dealership has my crown jewel. The Shelby Gt 500 Mustang----tomorrow. I know, it's a rare car-and it being restored it'll be even more so, but worth every penny to me.
I've already figured I could pawn some of the guitar's I don't use anymore and have a decent leg up on making her completely mine. I'm so excited though---I can't wait!! Thanks again
A puppy, a new car, a stable place to call my own and lot's of great friends. I'm pretty happy right now!
I spent my usual day of therapy with Se7en, doing our usual, we talk about everything from A to Z..I'm so sure!
Okay. Puppy is whining, he wants to go out. See you all in school tomorrow
- Mood: happy
Besides the job hunt, and the school work stuff--I haven't been upto a whole lot. I've even usually written more songs then I have in the past month by now, all an example of how much busier I am then I thought I would be, but it's a good thing. Before, when I knew my father was planning yet another move--I didn't even have to worry about keeping up attendance places, because I wouldn't be able to see it through to the end anyhow, and otherwise, what was the point? I may be rambeling again, forgive me. Old habits die hard, or something. I guess all i'm trying to say is I rather like it here.
Now, if you'll excuse me--while I still am unemployed with a Friday night to spare, I think I'll go dancing or something.
- Mood: curious
Okay, so I'm not the next Wayne or anything--far from Ludacris himself or anything, but my own music is a bit slower, a bit more 'heartfelt.' Whatever I can describe it as,I've been labeled by some Emo, Country, Pop--frankly, I don't think I have a label. I'm just doing what I do, in either case..these are the tracks that I spent most of the last two years working on..when you are your own backup band and vocals, mixing board, producer, director, writer--you have a lot to do.
- Mood: content
I haven't met that many people here yet, mostly because as much as I tell myself I'm going to be social, I'm the social houdini, and that's about it. In either case, I did manage to meet Se7en and David, who are totally two of the coolest guys. Also, it's good to get up with people who are new too, that's a rare event. It's kind of like more people looking in on the world like you do.
After the subject of new friends and V day, I'm not left with much to note. I can say that I talked to my older sister on the phone for about three hours the other day, until my cell was hot to touch. It's rare I've ever made a phone call that long, and strangely enough--it was practically about nothing! I think we talked about breeds of dogs for like, ten minutes and some guy I used to go to high school with. Random. It's always nice though.
I'm working my ass off trying to make sure everything I turn into class is gold, mostly because the Father-ship tells me if I screw this up---Rabble Rabble. Rabble.
Today however...today I am doing a pile of nothing, followed by maybe a j, maybe a walk, more nothing. Maybe food. Beer. Ohhh yeah. I'd be down for hanging out too, in which case.
- Mood: content
So, I guess I'll take the time to do a bit of a rundown on who I am--my name is Alexzandra Johnson, but please--Lexzi, Ali, any variations there of will do fine. I answer to most anything anyway, most commonly at some of my other school as "Hey redheaded girl" or "Yo white girl" there was the occasional "..for real, your last name's Johnson?" Yeah. Har. Har.
At any rate, I'm 21 years old (I wonder what the age is that girls start saying 'young' instead of old. Like my Aunt..she always says she is "43 years young" ) and am completley new to the area, though I'm looking forward to getting to know this place! I mentioned in my earlier entry, dad was in the service so--I was moved around a lot with my sister. This is my first real shot at being settle for any length of time--it feels damn good to worry about how my room will be decorated--because I'll be in it long enough!
I'm kind of a geek--I don't mind school at all, so long as the day provides something interesting. Plus, I was able to take Music theory and Guitar tech, and that right there is two hours of 'Lexz playtime,' because it's hard to pry my guitar out of my hands these days. The downside is I often find myself more restless and hyper then those around me, my mom used to tease me and say it was 'stage energy' I don't know what any of that shit really meant, because the school nurses called it 'a.d.h.d' and tried shoving ritalins and concertas down my throat, but my parents argued my grades were really good, I was active in school and aside from a note passed here, or an uncontrolled laugh there--I'm just like everyone else. Mostly.
I mean, I am totally a superhero--
That can fly.
And a millionaire, like Lil Wayne.
Nah, but I do wish.
Anyway. Be social, I'm always up for a chat! Lexzi Sings
- Mood: happy
All my life I've been 'the new kid.'
Having a dad that's in the military, which forces us to uproot and move to other places a lot didn't help either, but at the same time it's something you get used too. By my eighth move, and tenth grade I was standing at the front of the class saying "Yep. I've moved here, and this summer I'll be somewhere else, and the summer after that,," I never really stopped to 'smell the roses' anywhere, because I was never there long enough for them to grow. Sure, I have a three mile long e-mail address book, but it's all just words spilled out of boredom, to people who are doing the same thing, living their same day to day, run of the grind life.
On the positive edge, I have seen so many places and different things that I wouldn't have if I stayed in 'small, sheltered Canada.' That's what my dad used to say at least, I think he thought it made the move smoother if me and my big sister thought the world was about to unfold in front of us.
Anyway, here I am..and after many years, I'm not saying hello with goodbye attached, I'm just..here, and since I'm on my own, if I like it,,I can stay. No more jumping from place to place, no more making friends that I'll never know well enough to attend a wedding, or anniversary party. There's not even going to be anymore fighting with my older sister Sadie over who will get what room in each new house. There's just a single room, a nice dorm room, waiting for me. Always in the same town now. Needless to say, I really am excited, I just want to be normal--most people grow up wishing they will one day travel and see the world--I grew up wishing i could plant my damn feet on the ground for ten minutes!
It wasn't really as lonely as one might think though, each town, I wrote new songs..sang for new crowds. I used to pretend that I was touring the world, and that I was a rockstar. Maybe that's childish, but hey--music is my best friend. It's always been there.
I'd love to hang out if someone wants to show me where I can find one of three places; the best coffee shop in town, the best place for my guitar replacement parts, and what the big attractions are around here. I wouldn't mind checking out the bar scene, either. I'll probably see some of you in class, and I won't be babbeling this bad, I promise.
Aim me?: Lexzi Sings
- Mood: cheerful
